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35 Years Around The Sun

On the 25th I turned 35 years old.


I remember as a kid, looking at people in their thirties and thinking how grown-up they were. They were established. Mature. Respected. They had their lives together, and completely planned out...


Now I know better.


35 is going to bring some changes. Changes that I am excited about, but I know are also going to be hard.


For the last year, I've worked on building a business, coaching people in sobriety and recovery. I've spent countless hours recording reels, videos, and content for social media to encourage and educate people. I've shared a lot of my life so that people could get to know and trust me - it's been an incredible experience, and it's allowed me the opportunity to coach and meet so many people! I've grown in many areas, and I'm thankful for that, but it's time for me to take a step back and lessen the time I am investing there.


Why?


Because I need to. I've felt a tugging at my heart for a while now, and it's time to listen.


First, I need and want to focus on my family. Did you know that while I'm "home with my family" every day... I homeschool my children, I run our home inspection business, manage our rental properties, create content for coaching and instagram, and facilitate breathwork sessions? I also try to be a good wife and mom, keep our household clean and together, attend small groups and church, all while maintaining friendships and trying to be a good steward of everything God has given me.

Listen, we CAN do it all, but SHOULD we? And better yet, do we WANT to?


Right now, I feel that at the end of the day, my family is getting the least of me. I desperately want to be an attentive wife and mom. I want to have time to support my husband in the things that he wants to accomplish. I want to support my children in their dreams, and I want to read with them, play with them, and lead them. But by the time I'm needed for any of that, my cup has run dry, and I'm not okay with that.


Second, I feel a strong and steady pull toward my community. While I have been focusing on building a virtual business, there are people in my community begging to be invested in. There are people who desperately want to grow and heal, but they have no idea where to start. Some don't even know it's an option. I don't know what serving in this area looks like yet, but I'm open to it.


It's time for me to make room for those people that are right in front of me, and that means stepping back from things that aren't serving them, and ultimately that are no longer serving me.


So, I'll be cutting back on my social media presence and coaching. I started making reels and sharing my life on Instagram because I wanted to inspire people and prove that recovery can be amazing. Over time it became more and more time consuming: making and editing reels, writing up captions, responding to comments, coaching people via private messenger, sharing encouraging messages and content, and trying to share some of my life so people could "know me"... and over time it began to give me mild anxiety. I feel anxiety while utilizing social media, and I feel anxiety if I'm not utilizing social media. The good thing is that this discomfort has reinforced the tug on my heart to step back and truly be present. Present in my home. In my family. In my friendships. In my church. In my community. In MY life.


I'll still be available on Instagram, but it will mainly be to share when I have upcoming breathwork sessions. No entertaining reels. No excess content. All of my content, coaching, writing, and life updates will be here on my website... you can subscribe below or message me your email address and you will get everything directly to your inbox ❤️


I absolutely love the people I have had the opportunity to coach and encourage, but it's time to take a step back and focus on serving the people right in front of me.

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